Rolling into ChinaTown in the wee hours.
Earlier, Stephanie and I put the home together: dinner, bath and bed.
We fell asleep, all's secure.
She has the night but I get a nap.
A painting is underway, the studio is hot.
Joel's studio lights are on. I flipped open the cell.
Whazzup? We talked about things.
I've been hibernating again. News felt good.
Highjinks. Stories.
People in trouble.
People saving grace.
People in ChinaTown.
I thought about impulses. Lifegiving and life denying.
Topics too big this post. This is just a note.
But our every act is either one for life or one for death.
Our arc in this world is a mix of the two.
We should cling to the former but wisdom seems to come with an acquaintence of the latter.
Icarus-like.
Especially art.
A big essay. This is just a note for later.
A night cap? Joel buys me a Jameson.
Sinke set up our drinks at Hop Louie, lights on, last call.
A toast: "To Life!".
I catch Joel's eye and we note the contradiction silently.
A big essay this is.
Finally at the studio. Lights on. Laptop open.HERE BUT I'M GONE
Album : New World Order
Curtis Mayfield
Posted by Dennis at February 11, 2006 2:32 AMHow did I get so far gone?
Where do I belong?
And where in the world did I ever go wrong?
If I took the time to replace
What my mind erased
I still feel as if I'm here but I'm gonePorched up in a rocking-chair
With my feet all bare
Rolling my blunt in a cigar wrap
Live an adolescent mind
never do take the time
Waiting for my high, quiet as it's keptHow did I get so far gone?
Where do I belong?
And where in the world did I ever go wrong?
If I took the time to replace
What my mind erased
I still feel as if I'm here but I'm goneMama told me I was best
Argue and punch in my chest
Son now be strong, let me take you home
I'd see in her eyes so sincere
Screaming, what got me here
Standing in the world and with my mind all blownHow did I get so far gone?
Where do I belong?
And where in the world did I ever go wrong?
If I took the time to replace
What my mind erased
I still feel as if I'm here but I'm gone?How did I get so far gone?
Where do I belong?
And where in the world did I ever go wrong
If I took the time to replace
What my mind erased
I still feel as if I'm here but I'm goneI do nothing but waste all my time
Leaving the world behind
Smoking my crack just to keep me high
Around the boys I play my part rough
Keep myself tough enough
Never to cry
Don't really want to dieHow did I get so far gone?
Where do I belong?
And where in the world did I ever go wrong?
If I took the time to replace
What my mind erased
I still feel as if I'm here but I'm goneHow did I get so far gone?
Where do I belong?
And where in the world did I ever go wrong?
If I took the time to replace
What my mind erased
I still feel as if I'm here but I'm gone
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